On the altar of science the military industrial compex technocrats have forgotten magick and alchemy in their mindless greed for power and control. Cap'n Kittens and I were talking on the Boulder Mall about how we are allowed to protest because it doesn't change anything. I thought that protests only vent emotions, like the millions who marched around the world before Bush invaded Iraq. This caused so small an effect around any real change. If we really wanted to transform things, we'd walk away from the same old debate and go play, create new art and real underground alternative ways of co-existing in a brand new community. Maybe if enough young people were dreamers and the militaristic arm of the present technosphere cycle violently cut them down because it threatens their monopoly on war, greed, sterile productions of capitalistic/communistic/fascist gains, maybe then some hardened hearts would be touched by the youth seeking change, to be so committed to change that they'd sacrifice their lives, join a rock band, become a gypsy, or go homeless rather than buy into the system! Like at Tiananmen Square protests and Massacre of 1989 in China.

As technomages we are dedicated to transforming the biosphere of Gaia and the Planetary Consciousness of all species on Terra Firma.

Another alternative would be to bring harmony to technology and environmental arts. It's a shame Al Gore can only reach people about the problems of the environment if he is onstage with a rock band, like Smashing Pumpkins, just to raise the consciousness around how pollution is breaking down the ecosphere. Although the music is good, like protests, it will bring no lasting change and probably no debate in the same old, same old upcoming elections. Maybe the candidates of all parties ought to be forced to speak to audiences who disagree with them, instead of preaching to the choir! It is dreams and magick, two ingredients always there, that will bring about a new art of tRaNcEFoRmAtIoN and change.

Blessed dreams of peace, Shaman dreamer Frater Sabaechit

"Shamanic dreamers recognize waking life is also a dream, and the world will speak to us in the manner of a dream if we know how to attend to it. Maybe we need to take the dream more literally and the events of waking life more symbolically."~Robert Moss Who I'd like to meet: Psychics, Active dreamers, Gays, Writers, Dreamspellers, Native Americans, Shamans, Witches and Warlocks, Thelemites.

Om Ha!

"This unique Journal of Magick is totally eclectic, with a focus on serious practical and theoretical essays, fiction, rituals, art and poetry that all express The High Art: those countless aspects of magick and the alchemy of the 'Great Work'. The material herein is primarily in, although not limited to, the realm of Thelema. This means operating on the principle of love under will. Other terms such as Tantrik, Shamanic, Chaotic, Wiccan and so on may also apply. The Will to Love is the Law to Live. In the end, Silver Star is what our contributors and readers choose to make of it..."

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Joy & Thanks to all those who have contributed in so many ways to SS8

Contributions now being accepted for SS9 Smile

Spread the Word!!!

Love & Will to All

Aion For the SilverStar Collective"

279, My own little pitch, check out my piece,The Secret Fourfold Word, in this issue. In it I reveal the three numerologies that I discovered about a year and ahalf ago hidden within the Book of the Law (yes, there is more)...the Word is Out...SMILE...

http://www.horusmaat.com/silverstar/SILVERSTAR8-PG16.htm

Please tell me what you think?

Maybe we'll get some great new members here from the links!

Blessed be 93, Frater Sabaechit Moonwolf

Check it out...

The Issue Silver Star 7 is out!

http://www.horusmaat.com/silverstar/SILVERSTAR7.htm

Be sure to check out my article on a new Numerology that I discovered in Liber AL vel Legis, the Book of the Law:

Theman if so u?

By Ron Adams / Frater Sabaechit

http://www.horusmaat.com/silverstar/SILVERSTAR7-PG24.htm

I've kept a dream journal now for 3 years and belong to a few active dreaming groups. You can join us at any of these groups, FEDS being my own:

Earth First Dreaming School unitedacademyofdreams.info

Sea Life (run by my friend Nick in Australia) sealifedreams.com/forum/index.php

Association for the Study of Dreams asdreams.org/

Here is my membership spot on ASD dreamtalk.hypermart.net/member...ms.html

I am also on myspace www.myspace.com/shamandreamer388

Frappr www.frappr.com/fraterdragonsmane

And Tribes people.tribe.net/sunwolf_388

Let's network for a better, more conscious planetary existence. Dreaming is the magick link. I feel its the most important ritual work that we do!

Dream on, Sunwolf Frater Sabaechit Frater Dragon's Mane yahoo id: crystalraven7

Power of Prayer dream

I am with 8 women. It is just before dawn and we are breaking into a church.

There’s a little chatter about whether we should be doing this or not; but for the most part we are doing it for fun.

We break in by the basement door and then make our way to the main sanctuary. It is sunrise now.

I ask one woman if we are going to sing in the choir.

Suddenly many members of the church start coming in wearing their Sunday best. I guess we are going to be part of a prayer group.

I wander around. I begin to see vendors selling their wares. Everything from clothing to toothpaste, to vitamins. EOD.

Comments: Interesting dream. Not many people breaking into a Church to sing, pray and worship.

Auspicious since tonight is the full moon. Just in time for my ceremony. I wonder if I ought to go to church with Eric? Interesting prospect, being a Thelemite and valuing free thought and free will, magick, etc.

I guess the power of prayer is similar to the intent in magick. I wonder if I am to convert Christians to Thelema? No, we thelemites don’t convert, much.

I did set my intention before sleeping, by asking my dream guide to give me a dream for my highest good.

Also interesting is the 8 women with me.

I guess you can take the Gay Boy out of Christianity, but you can’t take the Christianity out of the Gay Boy. I was Christian about 18 years and I’ve been Thelemite 22 years. I guess its no different than being a Freemason and going to Church with their family. On my Grandmother Dorothy’s side of the family Emmanuel Lamon was head of a Masonic Order in his home town of Harrison, Indiana, as was his son Elbert Lamon. Most of the Lamons were furniture makers.

Aleister Crowley rewrote the rituals of the OTO, Order of the Temple of the Orient. In Lege Judica Tace “Of the Nature of the Arcanum” he wrote about the Way of Attainment and how it was preserved by the Gnostics and Manichees, received from the greatest Magi of Egypt. Crowley writes “Our Lord Jesus Christ established it through the mouth of his Beloved Disciple. This is the True Sacrament by which ye are partakers of the very Body and Blood of our Lord Jesus Christ, not his death, but in His resurrection. By this are ye made Children of the Light, Fellows of the Holy Ghost, perfect pure, Companions of the Sangreal, illustrious Knights of the Sacrosanct Order of Kadosch. By this have ye the GNOSIS; by this are ye counted among the Dwellers of the Sanctuary.”

Somewhere in his titles he states that Horus and the Gnostic Christ are one and the same. Obviously a door is open here. I could talk all day. So before I write a book, I’ll stop this correspondence for now. Apart from my comments, what do you think of the dream?

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“We must honor our dreams besides just interpreting them, dream call us to action, provide deeper elements for us to investigate and sometimes dreams reveal new pieces to the puzzle for our exploration. Dreams call on us to recognize something deeper and hidden that we would not normally see in waking life and not to just watch the dream go by like T.V or a nice video game.” ~Ron Adams

Table of Contents Feature: The Thelemic Centennial Celebrating the 100th anniversary of the writing of The Book of the Law, received by Aleister Crowley April 1904.

Includes articles by Eric Lerner, Alamantra�, Ron Adams, Sven Davisson, Dead Jellyfish and others. The issue features articles on Crowley's & his natal chart, ecumenical thelema, looking into the word, thelemic antecedents such as Rabelais and Sir Francis Dashwood, and an explication of thelemic philosophy and the concept of self.

Sven Davisson Editor, Ash�! Journal http://www.ashe-prem.org

Check out my article, Ecumenical Thelema by Ron Adams

Also check out Sven's editorial on Gay Marriage, how it is a secular issue.

93,93/93 Sunwolf

93,93/93 Sunwolf Thelema Dreamspell http://www.angelfire.com/zine2/majik/thelemadreamspell.html

100 Years of the Aeon of Horus http://chaosplanet.com/thelema100/

conflagration project http://conflagrate.proboards27.com/index.cgi

A Thanksgiving Wish! From Yoko Ono 11-27-3

We are now facing the dawning of our global village, admist polluted air, water and insanity. Fear not. War Is Over.

I believe, we, the human race has opened our eyes to save ourselves and the planet at the 25th hour. The first good news came two months ago, from North Carolina scientists who successfully made a monkey move an object psychokinetically. One monkey influences 100 monkies, as they say. But if one monkey can move things psychokinetically, imagine what millions of human beings can move together (We can move mountains!). Military personnel immediately understood the power of this experiment. "Now we can kill our enemies psychokinetically." That's what was said. But why not use the power to save ourselves? I believe you and I will.

The second good news has come from an experiment done by a Japanese scientist, Masaru Emoto, who has discovered and demonstrated that "water reads." This is unbelievable information, but it's true. To put it simply, Emoto put water in a bottle, put a label on the bottle with a word written on it facing inside the bottle. He then froze the water and examined the crystal created by the water under a microscope.

The photos of the crystals show, that when you write a word such as, love, regardless of which language, the water creates a beautiful crystal. When you write "happiness" it also creates a beautiful crystal.

But when you write "unhappiness" it cannot form a crystal. Interestingly, the word "Hell" created terrible dirty water. Don't ask me why!

('Messages from Water' ... Masaru Emoto, translated in English)

Sentences create equally fascinating results. When you write "how pretty you

are!", it creates a beautiful crystal, whereas "you stupid guy!" creates muddy, ugliness, reminiscent of extremely polluted water. The water reacts to very delilcate differrences, too. When you write "you better do it!" it creates a muddyness like an expression of rebellion. However, it creates a beautiful crystal if you write "let's do it, shall we?" Of course, the biggest hit is "I love you." There is no limit to how much this sentence in many different languages can do to clean the water and create beautiful crystals. The muddiest, polluted water can become clean.

The water not only reacts to the written words but to music. When music was played to the water, many beautiful crystals were created. It was interesting for me that the song "imagine" created a crystal very similar to the word "angels."

And, of course, 80 percent of our bodies are made up of water! What does that mean?

We are probably making very dangerously muddy people as our opposition by constantly throwing verbal attacks at them. If we make them muddy, we will pretty soon become muddy, too. Just by sending good words, it not only clears the people you send the good words to, but it clears you, too. So if you are insulting someone, that is the same as insulting yourself. All this is demonstrated by the photos of the waters and their crystals.

The power we have is wisdom based on clear information we share with each other. The power we have is our sanity and the knowledge that we are all water, and that water changes by what it reads and what is communicated. So, now it is clear that we can change the world without leaving our homes just by thinking, holding, and communicating the right idea!

Since things happen in threes, I propose that we create the third bit of good news ourselves - by coming together this New Years Eve, and ending the year with a clear vision. Let's visualize all the people living life in peace. l0 seconds. One hour. All day. Anywhere and anytime of the day.

Carry the clearest vision of a peaceful world you can imagine. Let's do it with a spirit of fun and joy. Not with anger, not with fear. Let's not march. Let's sing, dance and hug each other to bring in the New year, and, with it, the new world. Let's report to the Universe how happy we are to be on this planet which is a part of a beautiful constellation.

For opposite of love is fear, not hate, opposite of wisdom is confusion, not stupidity, and the shortest distance between two points is our desire and our unwavering belief. So listen to your heartbeat and enjoy. It's worth every minute of it.

An extra special Happy New Year to you. Remember, we are all water in the same ocean. I love you!

yoko ono

The Book of the Law, Liber AL, channeled in 1904 by Aleister Crowley, under the guidance of Aiwaz, mentions "time" 4 times. And one of them is most significant in our study of illumination.

"Behold! the rituals of the old time are black." Liber AL II:5 NAEQ = 470

'Rituals of the old time' = 270

'Rituals of the old time are black = 353

'Old time are black' = 191 'Old time is black' = 181

Now that last one is intersting, considering illumination = 171. Something is black it isn't illuminated, it is hidden. Wasn't the philosopher's stone the 'hidden stone'? 'New time is illuminated' = 321

The Gregorian calendar darkened the old time. The Julian calendar darkened even older druid times. The rituals of the old time are hidden. Perhaps this is a clue to the Mayan daykeepers use of time and the new time of the Mayan Dreamspell, or the reawakening to time being subjective and personal, creative and in the power of the individual and not the state, church or factory?

"Ye shall see them at rule, at victorious armies, at all the joy; and there shall be in them a joy a million times greater than this." Liber AL II:26 NAEQ = 1358

'million times greater' = 300

Hum, 718 - 418 = 300? Can you imagine a joy a million times greater? 'joy a million times greater' = 339

That would be a lot of ecstasy. Can a illuminated mind be part of that joy? And ending being a prisoner of time be part of that illumination?

'Ecstasy' = 88 'prisoner of time' = 242

"There are rituals of the elements and feasts of the times." Liber AL II:36 NAEQ = 706

'feasts of the times' = 254

There's that celebrating time thing again.

"Hail! ye twin warriors about the pillars of the world! for your time is nigh at hand." Liber AL III:71 NAEQ = 821

'for your time is nigh at hand' = 311

Twin warriors. Hum, that means two like-minded souls who have won some sort of battle, a battle over being prisoner's of time, perhaps? Remember, the Spiritual Warrior's Labyrinth Journey is about helping us become Telepathic together. That would be like becoming Twin Warriors. That would be better than being the child of the Aeon foretold, wouldn't it? I mean, if we were twin's, there would be a union. We wouldn't be alone, in time, anymore. And that word 'Nigh' is interesting.

'Twin Warriors' = 139 'Spiritual Warriors Labyrinth Journey' = 429 429 - 418 = 11

By the way, let's look at these two NAEQ numbers for: Time = 93 Illumination = 171

171 - 93 = 78 171 + 93 = 264

Hum, 93 is the word for Thelema. True Will Time = 201 Thelema Time = 195 Thelema = 102

102 - 93 = 9

There's that 9 lords of time thing.

In Medieval Tarot, the Marseilles deck, there was a Trump for TIME: Trump 9, and related to the Hebrew word Tet (Teth). This could very well be the modern day Hermit, seeking the Philosopher's Stone, which might be related to the key to Time and Immortality.

While we are at it lets look at one more NAEQ word: Immortality = 173

Very interesting that Illumination and Immortality are very close. So close in fact that, 171 + 173 = 344 418 - 344 = 74

Rota, the word Tarot comes from, might mean the Wheel of Time. Rota = 44 Taro = 44 Tarot = 68 (Interesting, in a side note, Tarot = 444 in Thelemic Golden Dawn numerology)

Ok, finally, in my friend Foton Fonon's DreamStar Spell, Kin 418 = Yellow Planetary Warrior "I perfect in order to question producing fearlessness I seal the output of intelligence with the planetary tone of manifestation I am guided by the power of flowering"

'Planetary tone of Manifestation' = 415

Yellow Planetary Warrior is in the last Star wavespell of the 425 kin, Green Joy Star Wavespell. Remember that 'joy a million times greater' = 339 418 = 339 = 79

To check these numerologies go to Ikaris Time Lord calculations and use the calculator at near the bottom of the page: http://quaarts.freeyellow.com/page3.html

Mayan Thelemites "http://groups.yahoo.com/group/timeequalsart/"

CCC93 � Order of the Sacred Blue Rose "http://groups.yahoo.com/group/CCC93/"

SpiritEcstasy � A Gay Eye on Magick "http://groups.yahoo.com/group/SpiritEcstasy/"

I am into Frater Achad, the Mayan Dreamspell Law of Time and how I feel it is a key to the Book of the Law, and other New Agey things. Look forward to seeing those interested. 93,93/93 Frater Sabaechit Time Wizard Tai Waz Sunwolf Singular Marsunderground Crystal Raven Marsravenwolf Panzspar Frater 650 (some of my many names and hats on the internet)

-- Society for the Promulgation of the Religion of Thelema http://n.webring.com/hub?ring=sprt93

Be sure to visit our new forum on the site, just go to our webring hub and click on Visit Forum.

To "Promulgate" means to 'publish' to make a decree or law, proclaiming something, and I trust and hope you will assist us here at S.P.i.R.i.T. to help make the various branches of Thelema visible to the rest of the world, for those who have eyes and ears, to see and hear, so that we may all see 'trees for the forest' and the 'forest for the trees'; the enchanted forest that has grown up around the various Thelemic visions. With this 100th year anniversary of the writing of the Book of the Law coming up. We honor both Aleister Crowley and his magickal son, Frater Achad, Charles Stanfield Jones. Blessed be. 93,93/93 PAN FS ********

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Scientific Illuminism. The Society for the Promulgation of the Religion of Thelema is dedicated to spreading alternative awareness about the Law of Thelema. This Webring is one of many tools that S.P.i.R.i.T. uses to achieve this end. The purpose of this Webring is to gather the finest sites that promulgate the various aspects of the Law of Thelema, into one spot. Our emphasis is on autonomy, and not Thelema-speak. We aren't looking to create dogma and agreement. We seek diversity and different views on Thelema, under one umbrella. "The aim of Religion, the method of Science."

Panzspar Frater Sabaechit New Webwizard and Forum Master P.S. Email me if I can be of any assistant, or you want to share your work and project. I can assist with building websites to, for a simple energy exchange.

Discipline day 23, Natural Majik Moon 8, Lessons Year 99 Red Spectral Serpent day

Ikaris Calendar http://quaarts.freeyellow.com/page3.html

Kin: I am going to do my New Moon ritual today, at 3 pm Mountain Time. It will be daylight, and I will have a black candle, which I will lite (to lite the darkness) and a white candle which I will not lite (endarken the light). The Sphere is Malkuth, and ironically in my Ikaris calendar today is path 31, into Malkuth. The Mayan Tree of Life, Malkuth is the Moon, and it is Spectral Tone energies and Blue Monkey energies (Chuen). Ironic that it is Kin 245 today (Red Spectral Serpent) and Kin 368 in DreamSpell Star: White Spectral Mirror Kin 368 I dissolve in order to reflect releasing order I seal the matrix of endlessness with the Spectral tone of liberation I am guided by my own power doubled (Dog Star-wavespell)

My theme is Grounding, Discipline, Manifestation. My sacred words are LUMIN and ENDARKEN. Frater Achad's Kabala has path 31 as the Magus, Tarot Trump 1. Aleister Crowley and Traditional Tree of Life has it as Aeon, Judgement, Tarot Trump 20.

So I will also lay out the Mayan cards in the Tree of Life pattern, and perform my ritual, ground myself, meditate, and then perform some magick that seems appropriate. I will report back, tho I am going to let go of the 'lust of results'. Somehow I am intuiting that this will be all about tradition and chaos. (the white candle will be saved to burn at the Full Moon on Nov. 8th)

93/969 Tai Waz Tai Wolf

His guide is CIB, intelligence, and I see this can correlate with Set. By the by, today is also Yellow Spectral Human, Kin 232

G-force is the extra kick: Kin 66 (of course!) White Magnetic World-Bridger: "I unify in order to equalize Attracting opportunity I seal the store of death With the magnetic tone of purpose I am guided by my own power doubled" 93,93/93 Tai Wass Time Wizard --- Ramos wrote: In October 12 1875 Aleister (n� Edward Alexander) Crowley came into this plane of existance. May rivers of Radiant Joy and Supernal Wisdom flow into Your Inner Sanctum in this special and sacrossanct day. Some sites for Crowleymas: http://www.93current.de http://www.rahoorkhuit.net/library/humor/night_before_crowleymas.html http://www.mt.net/~watcher/crowleyalienlam.html http://www.geocities.com/atentadocerebral http://planeta.clix.pt/carlosramos/links.html

93 I guess there are many things that can stir a person towards magick and mysticism, the new age, wicca or thelema. I think, for myself, it was more than a disgust for American Christianity. I felt that there had to be more to life than the 9 to 5 grind, accumilation of money, and the foolish attempt at power, whatever that was. Ultimately it was my problems and nightmares that led me to work on seeking something more divine, more intelligent. A grotesque contortion. There is a thin line with facing one's madness and discovering one's genius. A very thin line! At many times, in my early career I felt I was dying. That I would leave my body and the earth plane and never come back. It was a horrible feeling, I hate it. Yoga and pot seemed to be the only thing to keep me here at one time. I had given up everything, ambition, health, sex, money, friendships, etc. It was only until I stripped myself down was I able to take the first steps as a spiritual child. I began to question why I was so discontent in this world? Why was I born? I was becoming an artist of my own painting. It was these little steps that allowed me to begin to fashion the machine, that allowed me to begin to discover the information that I sought about myself. It took getting angry at the world, angry at God, angry at the Nation, angry at myself to finally come out the other side. And oh what a birth it was! A bloody birth, but none-the-less a grande birth indeed. I am sure many of my fellow seekers have revisioned their life in similar circumstances. We are all mutants in the dawn of the Nuclear Age. 93,93/93 Frater Sabaechit

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Ron Extension # 7788

Ron has read tarot cards for 30 years. He has lived his life dedicated to helping people find their true path and spiritual growth. Starting out doing readings in various New Age bookstores such as The Emerald Rose, Coven Gardens, The Mandala, and The Delphic Oracle, over the years Ron has taught classes in Psychic development, and learning the Tarot. He has even designed his own deck, The Matrix Tarot for the 21st Century (coming out soon). Ron also helped to do public relations for a Metaphysical event in Denver, Colorado, called the DEO Spiritual Awareness Expo in 1990 and 1991. It reached thousands of people, with very famous guest speakers and lecturers, such as Dr. Bernie Siegel (author of Love, Medicine & Miracles), Dr. Brian O'Leary (author of Exploring Inner & Outer Space, and the Second Coming of Science), and Terry Cole-Whittaker (motivational speaker, "Dare to be Great"). He has also written articles for various local magazines, and has had radio and Television appearances, such as on Mystical Insights. Let Ron answer your questions and find important points, revealed to you, about your life at this time.

http://certifiedpsychics.com/PsychicPages/Ron_7788.html

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Everyone: In my work on charting America's Destiny, it spoke of the Deities borne on America's birthdate, July 4, 1776, as being dual, or twin, Gods. Two twin Gods that I can think of in America are Money and Prosperity. Another is Freedom and Liberty. I see the Statue of Liberty and the Washington Monument representing America's Twin Gods.

http://people.delphiforums.com/sunwolf1/IkarisTimeLordReadings.html

Seems in the Book of the Law it speaks of this Aeon being that of Horus, who is a dual God; Aleister Crowley channeled on April 8th, 9th, & 10th 1904 (99 years ago) that Heru-Ra-Ha was this deity of the New Aeon. This god represented the dual aspects of Horus: Ra Hoor Khuit and Hoor-pa-Kraat, or Harpocrates. This is significant that Harpocrates is the Egyptian God of silence and healing. Uranus just moved into Pisces March 10th and this next 8 years will be transformations and breakthroughs in the area of global spiritual healing, just as the last 8 years of Uranus in Aquarius was the global transformation and breakthroughs in media like DVD, Internet, Cell Phones, CD, Flat Screen TV, etc.

In fact this year, March 20, 2003 began the Thelemic New Year, iv11, or Emperor Cycle and Lust Year, which is the year of Fire, the Year of Ra Hoor Khuit, who represents Flame.

So the two sides of Heru-Ra-Ha are Silence and Flame.

Black Moon Archives Heru-ra-ha A composite deity in Crowley's quasi-Egyptian mythology; composed of Ra-Hoor-Khuit and Hoor-par-kraat. The name, translated into Egyptian, means something approximating "Horus and Ra be Praised!" Of course, this could simply be another corruption due to the inferior Victorian understanding of the Egyptian language, and it is possible Crowley had something entirely different in mind for the translation of the name.

Ra-Horakhty (Ra-Hoor-Khuit) "Ra, who is Horus of the Horizons." An appelation of Ra, identifying him with Horus, showing the two as manifestations of the singular Solar Force. The spelling "Ra-Hoor-Khuit" was popularized by Aleister Crowley, first in the Book of the Law (Liber AL vel Legis).

Harpocrates (Hor-pa-kraat; Golden Dawn, Hoor-par-kraat) "Horus the Child", the son of Isis and Osiris as a little suckling child, distinguished from Horus the Elder, who was the patron deity of Upper Egypt. Represented as a young boy with a child's sidelock of hair, sucking his finger. The Golden Dawn attributed Silence to him, presumably because the sucking of the finger is suggestive of the common "shhh" gesture.

Sincerely Atunemen Ra

93

I was mixing it up over at American View II, mixing apples and oranges about Bush being overly religious in dealing with this crisis, and I brought up Eminem. A gay man over there said "Don't you know Eminem is homophobic?" This is my response:

"You are wrong. In his Rollingstone interview he talks about his real feelings about gays, and also in the movie 8-mile he defends a gay person. In his new CD he even says he is gay and so was his father. Eminem is just expressing it all. The word "gay" does not always mean us. In modern slang "gay" means something that sticks out, is foolish, like "that's so gay". It isn't always directed at us homosexuals.

His homophobic/anger period was when he was fighting custody for his daughter Hallie and divorcing his drunk wife. That was like almost 2 or 3 years ago. People change.

Never judge a book by its cover.

The guy from Guns and Roses, Axel Rose pulled the same publicity stunt in his day, too.

I find the biggest homophobia sometimes comes from our own camp, the gay movement. That's why I like Brian from Queer as Folk. He just let's it all hang out. Perfect example is the fund raiser he did last week, Carnival, for the Center, and he raised them $100,000, and the Center reps were outraged that there was no decency, that the character Brian wasn't setting a good example for the image of the Gay community, and Brian basically said this is what gay people do for fun. I applaud that kind of ballsy decadence.

If you perchance see 8-Mile you might get a difference view of the Man.

Is a person to be judged by something they did or said in the past, and they are never allowed to live it down, and persecuted for it?

This is what Bush is doing to Saddam, since there is no major evidence that Saddam is preparing for war. In fact Bush is acting more like the bully and terrorist, and we, the US, do have weapons of mass destruction. Bush is being overly religious and a moralist.

Thank you, this is the exact point I wanted to bring up, Eminem is about ending censorship. That's his gimmick, his ruse.

I don't buy this good & evil stuff coming out of the Bush camp.

As my friend Barbara told me today, why don't the religious folk (not the fundamentalists like Jerry Fawell and Pat Robertson) sit down with the Jihad folk and work some things out. I think that this is a much better way to handle it, since the Governments of the world don't want anything to do with "terrorists". Remember the British called our America Forefathers terrorist during the American Revolution, too. Its just a matter of vantage point!" Peace out, Sunwolf

Really weird, detailed dream. Eric & I were moving across town, into a new place. We weren't giving any notice at our old place because it was poorly run, and a bad neighborhood. We packed and had to figuire out the bus system, to use it to move. For some reason the buses now flew. We moved the first few loads this way. Suddenly we were at our first day of work, in a restaurant. The manager interviewed us and gave us our uniforms, to be busboys. Eric, for some reason, just walked out the door, I imagined he didn't hear we were starting now and thought he would keep moving our things. The manager was upset and I told him that ERic was partially deaf, so he just misunderstood. I reassured him I didn't think he was walking out. It was a mistake. So the manager and I, instead of starting work, went out back and got in this car, where a Mexican dude was sitting and listening to music. I asked what kind of batteries were running the tape player, since the sound quality was so good, and the guy pulled off the back of the player and handed me these round things, looked like gun shells. He said that they were and started throwing them around. The manager was in the front seat with him and was afraid they'd go off. I got out of the back seat and went inside the restaurant. Suddenly I was in my home, and Eric had returned, with Cathy and Adam. They had drove him back. Cathy said, "You only have two cats now." Deanna had run off. Plus Eric said some gang member had tacked a board to the front of our door, painted a gang sign and said they were claiming squaters rights. Just then the Owner of the Restaurant came into our home, and asked if we were going back to work. Cathy explained that Eric wanted to make sure the bed was set up so we could sleep that night. I turned it into a joke, and said "Eric there are 6 cousins and a couch here, you could've slept anywhere." So Eric, the owner and I went back to the restaurant. Once inside I suggested to the owner that he start Eric off in the kitchen, instead of making him a busboy. Let him work his way up to cook, since he was a great cook. Then I got angry, thought that nobody was going to keep my stuff and hurt little Deanna. I ran out the restaurant, just in time to catch Cathy and Adam before they drove off. Suddenly there were two other guys in the car too. I asked Cat to drive me to our old place, saying I wasn't going to let any gang members stop me. I sheepishly asked the guys if they'd come to the door with me and stand with me. They all said yes. Suddenly we were at the place. If had seemed like we'd gotten there faster than the airbus. Cathy was directed to back up into a parking spot, while some Spanish woman scanned the front of our car with a radar gun. Suddenly the back end opened up, and we were toss over, upside down to a lower level. I heard Cat say "I knew that was going to happen." ...just as I woke up, to a phone call (from my work, of all things).

I love Frater Achad's work. He was truely one of the great magickal childe of Crowley. I like the way he literally turned the Qabala upside down--inside out. Infuriated Crowley so much he proclaimed Achad insane. (Jealous old goat LMAO) [It is truely a great compliment to a teacher when a student succeeds them, tho many teachers take this as a personal attack and afront]

I too worked something out recently in connection to all this, rewrote the Qabala and made it personal to me and my logos. I call it Dreamshield, and it has 11 paths, 5 and 6 a key part to it. I also have a new forum called Dreamshield and anyone who reads this is welcome to come and post, you don't even have to sign up, unless you want to. [For my tease, the 11 paths are titled as the 11 seperate forum folders, see if you can guess which ones? No, Administration Discussion is not a path, tho hidden here in, this is a clue. LOL)

http://pub84.ezboard.com/bthedreamshield

0. Yet the Magus hath power upon the Mother both directly and through love. And the Magus is Love, and bindeth together That and This in His Conjuration.

1. In the beginning doth the Magus speak Truth, and send forth Illusion and Falsehood to enslave the soul. Yet therein is the Mystery of Redemption.

2. By his Wisdom made He the Worlds: the World that is God is none other than He.

3. Now then shall He end His Speech with Silence? For He is Speech.

4. He is the First and the Last. How shall He cease to number Himself?

5. By a Magus is this writing made known through the mind of a Magister. The one uttereth clearly, and the other Understandeth; yet the Word is falsehood, and the Understanding darkness. And this saying is of All Truth.

6. Nevertheless it is written; for there be times of darkness, and this as a lamp therein.

7. With the Wand createth He.

8. With the Cup preserveth He.

9. With the Dagger destroyeth He.

10. With the Coin redeemeth He.

11. His weapons fulfil the wheel; and on What Axle that turneth is not known unto Him.

12. From all these actions must He cease before the curse of His Grade is uplifted from Him. Before He attain to that which existeth without Form.

13. And if at this time He be manifested upon earth as a Man, and therefore is this present writing, let this be His method, that the curse of His grade, and the burden of His attainment, be uplifted from Him.

14. Let Him beware of abstinence from action. For the curse of His grade is that he must speak Truth, that the Falsehood thereof may enslave the souls of men. Let Him then utter that without Fear, that the Law may be fulfilled. And according to His Original Nature will that law be shapen, so that one may declare gentleness and quietness, being an Hindu; and another fierceness and servility, being a Jew; and yet another ardour and manliness, being an Arab. Yet this matter toucheth the mystery of Incarnation, and is not here to be declared.

15. Now the grade of a Magister teacheth the Mystery of Sorrow, and the grade of a Magus the Mystery of Change, and the grade of Ipsissimus the Mystery of Selflessness, which is called also the Mystery of Pan.

16. Let the Magus then contemplate each in turn, raising it to the ultimate power of Infinity. Wherein Sorrow is Joy, and Change is Stability, and Selflessness is Self. For the interplay of the parts hath no action upon the whole. And this contemflation shall be performed not by simple meditation --- how much less then by reason! --- but by the method which shall have been given unto Him in His initiation to the Grade.

17. Following which method, it shall be easy for Him to combine that rinity from its elements, and further to combine Sat-Chit-Ananda, and Light, Love, Life, three by three into nine that are one, in which meditation success shall be That which was first adumbrated to Him in the grade of Practicus (which reflecteth Mercury into the lowest world) in Liber XXVII, Here is Nothing under its three forms.

18. And this is the Opening of the Grade of Ipsissimus, and by the Buddhists it is called the trance Nerodha-Samapatti.

19. And woe, woe, woe, yea woe, and again woe, woe, woe, unto seven times be His that preacheth not His law to men!

20. And woe also be unto Him that refuseth the curse of the grade of a Magus, and the burden of the Attainment thereof.

21. And in the word CHAOS let the book be sealed, yea, let the Book be sealed.

...why the sun lightens our hair, but darkens our skin?

...why women can't put on mascara with their mouth closed?

...why you don't ever see the headline "Psychic Wins Lottery"?

...why "abbreviated" is such a long word? ...why doctors call what they do "practice"?

...why you have to click on "Start" to stop Windows 98?

...why lemon juice is made with artificial flavor, while dishwashing liquid is made with real lemons?

...why the man who invests all your money is called a broker?

...why there isn't mouse-flavored cat food?

...who tastes dog food when it has a "new & improved" flavor?

...why Noah didn't swat those two mosquitoes?

...why they sterilize the needle for lethal injections?

...why they don't make the whole plane out of the material used for the indestructible black box ?

...why sheep don't shrink when it rains?

...why they are called apartments when they are all stuck together?

...if con is the opposite of pro, is Congress the opposite of progress?

...why they call the airport "the terminal" if flying is so safe? AND

... In case you need further proof that the human race is doomed because of stupidity, here are some actual label instructions on consumer goods.

On a Sears hairdryer: Do not use while sleeping. (darn, and that's the only time I have to work on my hair).

On a bag of Fritos: You could be a winner! No purchase necessary. Details inside. (the shoplifter special?)

On a bar of Dial soap: "Directions: Use like regular soap." (and that would be how???....)

On some Swanson frozen dinners: "Serving suggestion: Defrost." (but, it's "just" a suggestion).

On Tesco's Tiramisu dessert (printed on bottom): "Do not turn upside down." (well...duh, a bit late, huh)!

On Marks & Spencer Bread Pudding: "Product will be hot after heating." (...and you thought????...)

On packaging for a Rowenta iron: "Do not iron clothes on body." (but wouldn't this save me more time?)

On Boot's Children Cough Medicine:"Do not drive a car or operate machinery after taking this medication." (We could do a lot to reduce the rate of construction accidents if we could just get those 5-year-olds with head-colds off those forklifts.)

On Nytol Sleep Aid: "Warning: May cause drowsiness." (and...I'm taking this because???....)

On most brands of Christmas lights: "For indoor or outdoor use only." (as opposed to...what?)

On a Japanese food processor: "Not to be used for the other use." (now, somebody out there, help me on this. I'm a bit curious.)

On Sunsbury's peanuts: "Warning: contains nuts." (talk about a news flash!)

On an American Airlines packet of nuts: "Instructions: Open packet, eat nuts." (Step 3: maybe, uh...fly Delta?)

I don't blame the company. I blame the parents for this one: On a child's superman costume: "Wearing of this garment does not enable you to fly."

On a Swedish chainsaw: "Do not attempt to stop chain with your hands or genitals." (...was there a lot of this happening somewhere?)

Now that you've smiled at least once, it's your turn to spread the stupidity and send this to someone you want to bring a smile to (maybe even a chuckle)

...in other words send it to everyone. We all need to smile every once in a while.

Term paper dream by Ron Adams 1-29-2003 e.v

I dreamed I was in college again. Turning in a term paper, handwritten. The Professor scanned it quickly, handed it back, and smiled, "Great work, now you're gonna have to include references and tell me how all this fits into your personal portfolio?" I had a puzzled look on my face. He added "How does this impact your life?" A light of understanding flash upon my face. Then he quickly added "You have to type it too and bring it back to me by 4 pm today." I told him that I didn't have access to a computer. He said "Well if you want to pass, find one!" I quickly woke up.

[This opened the door for a new understanding to my greak work, in the area of magick and integration.]

What is it? A global awareness? A Green Movement? Understanding the environment and the risk of overpopulation? Is it a pipe dreams? Or an answer to many centuries of prayer? Is it like Shambala, the lost city of gold, of the Inca's, the afterlife, heaven, eden?

Why can't each of us be aware of the planet, as our global home, a network interconnecting all species under the sun. It is our home. How do you treat your home? Do you crowd it? Pollute it? Disrespect it?

When one of the Apollo Moon missions took the picture of the Earth from the Moon, we didn't see any fences, boundaries, names and flags of countries on maps. We saw a blue planet of clouds, water, land, vegatation, etc. If we saw a picture today from the same vantage point, what would we see? Less grass, different coast lines, more pollution? Probably.

I believe that Planetary Consciousness can be seen as a poetic thing. People like Walt Whitman in Leaves of Grass, Aleister Crowley in the Book of the Law, Dion Fortune in The Magickal Battle for Great Britan, Oscar Wilde in Dorian Gray and The Importance of Being Ernest, Thoreau's Walden's Pond, Thea Alexander's 2153, Aldous Huxley "Brave New World" and "The Doors of Perception, many of Robert Anton Wilson's books, and many others have written of such an oasis in life. Artistically we have plenty of visions of an end to war, hunger, suffering, cruelty and pain. How can we activate them? Most people choose to leave the tribe, rebel, and create their own communal environment, which usually succumb to these problems inherent in humanity.

I believe that Planetary Consciousness is a psychic and spiritual thing. I had a vision once, called technically a "Kundalini experience", which up to that time I had never heard of. I saw a vision of the future, symbollically, where everyone lived in tune with nature, wore no clothing, lived tribally in peace, and had the power of telepathy and empathy. Storytelling and festivities, playing and love making, hunting and growing were the main activities. There were no wars, no technologies, no buildings, no concrete anywhere. As I look back it was kinda like H.G. Wells vision in his book the "Time Machine". Can human beings be so interconnected? That they would feel pain when someone else is hurt, and joy when someone else is joyous? Presently great art, music, poetry and such move people into these mystical realms. But it seems fleeting. Could we actually live this way? In the I-Ching the Hexagram for Peace is also Prosperity. When people prosper there is no need for war? But when people fall out of prosperity, they fall back into petty fights, attacks, feuds, revenge and war, the vicious cycle returns. Is there a consciousness that we could live by that could raise us up to the level humanity could live in properity and peace for all? There are finite limiting games where there are losers and winners. There are also infinite games were there a no losers, and everyone wins. Can we transform society, culture, education, politics, religion and the media to reflect more empowering and infinite games? The choice is yours, and yours alone. You don't have to get agreement from others. Just live your life in the way that you see Planetary Consciousness working. If it is random acts of kindness, helping the less fortunate, healing and caring for the sick, entertaining in song, music, art or theatre, whatever the form, it is your life and your creativity. Be like the wonder and amazement of the childe, create without holding back! Visit our new web page:

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